Wednesday, June 04, 2008
waoh... back to writing blog again, but then again, almost everytime i write in a blog, it is about something bad la so ya...
bad week for me... ended the last with a bang on Aristal 2008 at UCC. it is definitely something that will be in my memories forever de! haha... so fun dancing with all my friends and cca mates and juniors once again... realise that it is actually one of the things i look forward to everytime for the past 1-2 mths...over just like that! oh man... i'll miss that period of time!
started the following day bad... initially planned to go out... but a fever broke out, and vomiting followed, later diarrhea... and diarrhea... and diarrhea... for 2 consecutive days... must be the food i ate la... but ya... went on for like 2 days? came out all water...total loss of appetite... sux man the feeling... totally made me feel like dying...
monday came and i still havent recover, so took mc and rest at home... only to keep having diarrhea as usual...sucky days went by, but tuesday still came and it was still book in day...
sigh... the following stuff made my day totally bad... just felt depressed and worried and stuff... all this book in thing is still not being used to by me... been so long already, but im still like tt... week after week i worry... week after week i fear... for wadeva things i oso dunno... i only scare i nvr do this nvr do that, do this wrong get screwed, do tt wrong oso get screwed...
sigh...not like im not getting these moods suddenly, but that day was unusually bad...i really felt like just giving up...felt so tired...so mentally exhausted...sigh...oh well...guess i have to get used to it ba...cos im a clerk...and my life is so much better than other ppl...cos im a clerk and it is v slack...sigh...oh well...wad more can i say?
this life is so bleak...being in camp is like so suffocating...salvation seem so far away..........the day im truly saved will be that day i ORD... only then can i truly feel happy i guess...
thanks dear...for being with me thru this period of my life...i really dun think i can ever push on without u...and also friends...for the past few months, dancing with frens, it really made me feel happy! truly truly happy! so sad it's all over... everything's over... now it's all NS and NS and NS and NS... nth but NS............
~Ch3nDo|~
9:48 PM
// i felt!
